wow, Chris,you're really going through it . . . (and from your posts you always seemed so with it and happy) . . . . I'm so sorry it's so tough :(. You're right about one thing of course that He never ever gives up on us. (We are always the ones to do that). Please keep posting here how things are going if you think it might help in any way . . . can I ask what happened to break the ten year run? Was it something that you talked about at the time? I hope above all that you will find work again soon: I know only too well what a difference THAT can make. All the very best Chris :)