From everything you have said on this forum, it seems clear that you are not emotionally stable at this time. I don't think someone who is not emotionally stable should be attempting to mentor anyone else. Before you can be a mentor, you have to become someone worth looking up to. My suggestion is that you work through your emotional issues first and seek a YF only when you have become the strong, stable, emotionally healthy person that a boy should look up to. I think you might be putting the cart before the horse on this one. Become someone worth emulating first, then seek out someone to disciple.