I understand the overwhelming evidence as you put it, but isn't every person's walk with God different? Basically every story of the bible where somebody hears God speaking to them, it is just one person, not a group. Then that person has to go forth either believing they heard God or just heard voices from being crazy. Abraham believed he was to sacrifice his son, and that is no little matter. Nobody would have understood why he did it, and he would have just been deemed insane.

As far as evidence, the bible chronicles individual stories of interaction with God. We are the ones who claim they are to be lessons for all of us. When Jesus said take this bread and eat it in remembrance of me, maybe he only meant that for the disciples, not everyone. Is there a reason why God couldn't pick me or you or anybody to have a special relationship with a boy? Why do we assume to know what the plan is when the bible evidences God changing plans constantly?

I'm not saying that I am going to do anything illegal, there is much more to weigh than just the opinions of a few people in a forum. I just wonder why God made me like this, and what I am supposed to do about it. I have done everything else in my life on the up and up. I don't believe my attraction is evil and I don't feel like I would do something that would be harmful. Every situation is different, and there are cases of people having these types of relationships that work.

My relationship with a boy is the smaller issue that aides in my belief of God. If a relationship could work, than God really does exist. I know I shouldn't hinge my belief on a sexual relationship with a boy, and I'm not really, but it definitely helps. This is quite honestly the worst aspect of my personality, otherwise I am quite a good guy. If this were to work, I feel like I could really work to make the world a better place. It's very difficult to explain everything in a few paragraphs to make my point without sounding insane.