Hi there, Its not an uncommon feeling, I get it all the time. Desiring something you can not have. I find myself praying about it all the time. Wishing that this thing was not part of me one minute but then seeing the happiness I can bring because I do notice boys when everyone else walks by. Remember that we were all put here for some reason, and I certinaly hope that when my time comes to meet my maker he can explain this whole thing to me, because I often feal as you do too. Peace brother Bucky |