My Desires
Submitted by AmIStrange on January 17 2001 12:35:48
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For the longest time I have been dealing with my sexual orientation. At first I thought I was straight and then I thought I was gay. Up until I was about 25 when it all changed and I started to realize that I had been aroused by children my whole life, especially young boys. I would be at the Y and see a young child in the showers and I would become aroused by this, I would think to myself that this is not possible, how can a 25yo man be aroused by a young 7yo child? Then I realized that I was and that all my sexual feelings about adults were slowly going away and now all my feelings were towards young boys and some girls, I also then realized that I was having alot of fantasies about sexual contact with young boys and that this was my main source of pleasing myself through masturbation. I have never acted on my desires with boys because I love boys way beyond just the sex, sure it would be nice to be involved with a child sexually, but I know that I could never do it. I just really am not sure about myself and if this is healthy and if I need help with this condition? Do I need thearpy even though I am not acting on my desires? Would I be a pederast even though I am not having sex with young boys? If you can help me with this, that would be helpful. I am now 35 and am at a cross road in my life where I am totally confused. ED |
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