How do you relate to children now, can you still interact with them, or have you avoided them as potential temptaions. Do you still have the lust, but now have a renewed determination to channel that into a productive force. to love childen rather than lust after them. Please let me know because my situation is somewhat simalar to yours. My wife caught me looking at some internet porn and now my marragie is on the rocks, I am afraid that I may lose my kids, just as you have lost your son. I have not molested anyone, I have dealt mith it by taking long showers so to speak, I try to keep the love of kids and control the lust. |