I only saw myslef as the boy that needed the love, caring, and acceptance. And since I could not find him within, as no one else seemed to do either...I was a loner...I found that little boy who would be myself in other little boys. It was so simple, yet so complicated. I've often wondered if this is why I want so bad to reach out to boys. Is it something I'm trying to make up inside myself... trying to give back to myself... something I didn't get when I was a boy that I'm seeking to gain for myself by giving to other boys who I perceive as a mere reflection of the boy within myself? This is deep. But I wonder... ~Splash* |