Man's Law
Submitted by Forgotten on February 23 2001 10:33:15
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After (D) left I was in pain for at least 6 months, and of course there was no one I could share with, they would not understand. Well, one of (D)'s cousin's had taken to me...and I got a call from his mother to come hang out with him. I was not sure if I wanted to get involved with another YF. I did not want to be hurt again. (G) a 10 year old, really wanted me to come, and in a way it made me feel better. It's almost like a void in my life was filled again to be involved with another boy, almost like if I don't know at least one my life is empty. (G) was great and believe it or not we looked alot alike. I was asked many times if he was my son, brother, or cousin. He looked up to me and I felt that I again had a bro. We often played with peoples heads and told them we were brothers, and I remember on this one night he called me dad (by mistake) but it was still pretty cool. He introduced me to Anime which I now love. And one of our favorite things to do was go skating. I remember this one day in particular when he called me up and asked if I could come over and play, I felt like 10 again. I told him to let me ask my mom LOL. I vowed that I would not get to close to (G), that way if something happened I would not die all over again. I found out that he cared about me on a day I decided to climb the roof. Once I got up there...I was a little afraid of jumping back down...it did not look that high going up. So I kept staring at the ground trying to decide when to jump. (G) did not want me to jump, he said get on a ladder or something. Well, I got mad at myself and said enough is enough and jumped. (G) had his back turned when I did it. All he heard was thump, and came running over asking if I was ok...and after I told him, no promised him I was he threw something at me and said "That's for scaring me." He went on to ask again if I was ok...or if my legs hurt, and I told him that I promise I would tell him if I was hurt. (G) has a 14 now 15 year old brother. But he is always hitting and picking on (G). I tried to talk to his bro and tell him that his own flesh should not like me more than him, but he showed little intrest. Well, on to the "Man's Law" part. My cousin the first boy I was with was going threw a divorce and was under stress. Well our little meeting came out one night to his mother, my aunt. Now I believe that it's possible that someone else was taking advantage of (T) since he was even younger. He has always acted feminane, and I have seen him try to mess with his brother before. But that's not the point, his mother called one of my aunts whom loves to be in everyone's buisness. Well, (NA) -nosey aunt- called the local dept of law enforcement and told them. Now this is not what my aunt whom (T) belongs too wanted but you can't tell (NA) what to do. I was asked to come in without a lawyer and just tell them what happened, so I did...i did not want to call (T) a liar and I wanted to get it off my chest. I was told that the most that would happen was I would be charged as a juvinile and be put in consuling. Well, that's not what happened. At the time the investigation started I was living with (M) and (D) and right before they moved thier parents were told. (M) and (D) mother was unhappy, but I still was not aware of the charges, but she thought I knew and never said anything. And then I was seeing (G) and his mom was told, so I did not see him again for about 6 months. Well, it was during this time I went in to tell DLE about what happened. So this case was going no where and the city told the DLE that they were not going to even do anything about it. Until (G)'s mom called me up again and asked me to come back and see them again. So I did, she knew about the stuff and I did not know that, and she asked me about it. I acted dumb and came back a few days later and told her everything. That it had happend when I was 16 and I was not the same anymore. I was 19 at the time I was telling her all this. I told her if she never wanted to see me again I would fully understand. She said that she trusted me and I could stay. I was floored, to be honest if some kid told me that and wanted to hang out with my 10 year old I would be like hell no. So I hung out with (G) and his family and thought myself so lucky to have such great friends, I mean they were like my second family...both my parents had moved out of state. But (NA) -nosey aunt- found out that I was still hanging around little kids and had her husbands brother (a DA in another city) call up the PA in the city where this happened, and threaten him with media if he did not do something now. Well the next thing ya know old jeds a millionare...no not really I was charged as an adult, senetece to 5 years in the dept of corrections (suspended) put on 10years of probation. I have to register wherever I live as a sex offender, the local police can send out flyers that you live in the neighborhood. Yes, the next 10 years of my life is going to sux. My first mistake was ever doing it, My second mistake was ever going in without a lawer. I hired one after the fact for 7500, but he did not do much. So now what, I will never find a good job, my family knows, and a few of my really good friends and believe it or not they don't care. Of course (NA) thinks she saved me, she's thinks too much. God saved me when I met (D), and the only thing she did was ruin the rest of my human life. So I am now so ready to die. I feel I have let god down and my family, to have hurt a child so. After (D) I wonder how I ever could have. For your sake and that of the child, keep the relationships healthy...PLEASE! I am banned from seeing children alone now, and it sux. I don't see (G) anymore cause me and the mother was afraid the law would bring them into it. So we went our seperate ways. In about one month that sentence comes down. Will I be here for it...I don't know...I don't want to be. I hope so much that the kids I have met, I have had some small impact on their lives, that may make them grow up to be a better person. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or anything. I don't have a previous record with the law, I was suppose to be the one person in the family that did it right. God's law is the only one I am truly afraid of, and maybe this is a lesson or just a fork in the road god wanted me to take to put me where he wanted me to be. I trust God, but I feel he is wasting his time on someone that could have ever done what I did. God Bless You All Forgotten P.S. Remember keep them healthy. |
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