Becoming closer...
Submitted by Huck Finn on March 6 2001 16:54:49
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I ask for your prayers. I've become much closer to my YF over the last month. We've exchanged a lot of memories and aspirations. But also a lot of silly things and jokes. We've had a good time. The last two weeks he seemed to become distant from me. But then all of a sudden, on Sunday this week, he gets really close. As if to say, "I miss you." I've missed him I know that. I mean that closeness we used to have. And now, the last three nights, I've had very weird dreams. All of them containing sexual contact between a boy and a man. One of those nights was between him and me. Just a simple dream about me rubbing lotion on his legs. But it upsets me for some reason. I don't think that is really wrong. But it's the fact that I want to touch him in so many ways. (Don't get me wrong, I don't want to molest him.) Just be close to him. Close to him on a spiritual, emotional, and physical level. I don't know what to do. These dreams and feelings are making me depressed. Thanks for your time. Huck Finn huckster@hushmail.com |
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