In the last few years I have become fully aware that this phase that I thought I was going through was not going to go away and I finally realized that I am a boylover and that I have ton's of pedophiliac feelings towards young boys. Then I thought about it even more and realized that I would love to have god love me and support me, but then woke up to reality realizing that god and religion is not going to support a man like me that has sexual feelings and desires for young boys. I cannot find anything even remotely sexually arousing by adults in anyway and find that all my fantasies and contacts that are sexual are with children. I do not know what to do. |