Dear Giant, I doubt if any Christian's life ever turns out the way we think it should. Just remember that God know's what is best for all of us, even if we do not see it. He WILL lead you in the right way to go and then be right ther with you every minute, every second of every day! This is what has gotten me through this hard time in my own life, by the way. I have tried to do God's work regardless of where I am. When I was in jail I witnessed for Christ to the inmates and jailors. At my job I do the same, or at least try. If you do this where-ever you are, where-ever God puts you, He will bless your life and everything around you as well. I know this as a fact! You sound a whole lot better, brother. A lot less desperate! God will take good care of you...He LOVES you!!! I will be keeping you in my prayers and please try to keep coming back in here, ok? Love in Christ Jesus, Chris |