Re: Shattered Dreams
Submitted by Bill on 2002-06-19 17:33:00, Wednesday
In reply to Shattered Dreams submitted by Ben on 2002-06-18 20:46:48, Tuesday
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I too feel with you. Many is the time I have wanted to be completely different, to loose my BL personality, but God has not doe that for me in all my 46 yrs of loving boys. I cannot look back and say whether or not I have helped a boy by being a friend; I pray that I have never harmed one. All I know is that throughout my life, despite the countless times when I have fallen short of what I know God wants of me, He has never let me down, nor forsaken me, and He continues to shower His love on me and watch over me. I could never give Him up, even if I remain BL to my death. My friend, please don't either, your life will be the poorer without Him. I am now sure that God allows some things to remain undealt with by Him for a purpose. Sometimes it is to develop and strengthen our faith (although it may cause us to loose faith!) Maybe it is to develop our will power and strength to resist temptation (oh how I wish my will power had been more strong in the past!) Maybe it is like St Paul's thorn in the flesh, keeping us humbleand dependent on God. Sometimes .... I don;t know. Bill |
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