asked for .... (hopefully this wont be deleted)
Submitted by innocence is bliss on 2002-07-1 23:42:41, Monday
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I was walking down a well known gay strip here in OZ, feeling a little down and out of the blue, this kid walks up to me and asks if I have a spare ciggie (cigarette) "sorry mate, I don't smoke" I said, "thanks anyway" he replies and continues walking with me. "Hey you wouldn't have any spare change? I'm starving, haven't eaten in days" He asks with a well orchestrated, sad puppy, innocent "pretty boy" look. How could I say no? Just looking into his eyes was enough to make me "melt like butter" :-) He wouldn't have been any older then 13 tops! I'm sure of it. Anyway, I dig into my pockets and am just about to hand him whatever change I had, then thought "wait a minute" and said "you said you were hungry right?" "Yeah, starving" So I walked into a take away shop and asked him if wanted a pie, sasuage roll, chips ... or whatever? "Um, yeah, chips and a coke" he says with a huge smile, you'd think his entire christmases came at once. I brought him some chips and a coke and he wouldn't stop thanking me. He told me this really tragic story of how he is living on the streets, blah, blah, blah... how much of what he said was true, I don't know. But he seemed genuine enough and really looked like he hadn't had a shower in days LOL! I shook his hand, wished him a good day and made my way back to work (I was on my lunch break). I was feeling better after that "good deed" okay, maybe I'm a sucker for a pretty face, Actually I am :-)but still. Anyway, I'm about to cross the road and this kid (same kid) comes running up to me, grabs me, shakes my hand and says "thanks man, really, thanks" "No problems mate" I replied. Then he hit me with a shocker! "Hey, how about a sex job?" "What?" "How about a sex job?" he repeats, I heard it the first time, but wanted to make sure I heard correctly. Here was this kid, a little scraffy and dirty, but cute never-the-less. With his beautiful brown eyes and delightful boyish charm, he puts his arm around my waist and says; "come on, lets go to Adult world and I'll ..." (Adult world is a gay sex club) -Pay $10 and you can ... 24/7 or just watch ... or .... others. Can you picture the scene? Imagine it for a second, there you are in broad daylight, in the middle of the city. An adorable kid walks up to you, gives you a "mouth watering" smile and uses his "boyish charm" to the max, does his best to sedduce you, touches you, puts his arm around your waist and urges you to come for a "sex job" HELLO!!! What would you do? How would you be feeling at that very moment? And how would you feel later? Well, speaking for myself, I was skocked and still am! I declined his offer naturally (YES I DID) but admittingly, the offer was tempting. Besides, I doubt he would have got through the front door of Adult World, you do have to be over 18 to get into these places and this kid WAS DEFINATELY NOT 18!!!! But thats beides the point. Getting back to my story .... I looked at him, in shock and disbelief and said, "your kidding aren't you? " Stupid question I know, it just came out :-) "No, Im dead serious! Come on, I'm a great ... you'll see, come on, what do you say?" "Sorry mate, thats not my scene, besides how old are you, 13-14?" "19" "Bullshit" "okay 18" "Yeah right?" "17" "14 more like it" -I said. "No, Im 18 really" "Okay, so Im 15, so what?" "I don't believe you, if I was a betting man, I'd bet that you were 13" "Whatever mate, it doesn't change a thing anyway, I'm not interested, sorry and anyway, what are you doing offering complete strangers sex jobs? What if I was a psycho-paeddphile freak who agreed and then pyshically abused you?" "Don't worry about me, I can handle myself anyway, you have an honest face and don't look like a child rapist or somethig" he said "Well, I guess I should take that as a compliment or something. Listen mate, I really have to get going. But promise me something" "What?" "That you wont go around asking complete strangers for sex, we live in a fucked up and dangerous world. There are a lot of psychos out there, your playing a dangerous game mate." "Okay, I promise" (yeah right?) "Take care of yourself and please, be careful" "I will, thanks for the chips and coke, sorry I couldn't return the favour. Maybe I'll see you around ..." and with those few words he walked off. I haven't stopped thinking about him. Wondering what he is doing, where he is, if he is safe, if he has kept his promise or if he is in the hands of some child mollestoring bastard. I almost gave him my telephone number, but choose not too at the last minute. Of course, now I feel guilty and keep asking myself if I should have given it too him. Should I have done sothing else other then offer him some food? Could I have been more tactful, more loving? Did I do the right thing with the little that I did? Unfortunately, it was bad timing, I was running late for a meeting and really didn't have the time to chat with this kid. What would you guys have done? Does anyone think I messed up? Why does this always happen to me? I have a hard enough time accepting my B/L feelings, without being hit on by kids on the train, by my best friends 11-year old son or asked for sex by some street kid. Man, I wish I wasn't a B/L Innocence :-) |
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