Re: What's missing?
Submitted by Dakota on 2002-07-8 22:46:42, Monday
In reply to What's missing? submitted by Splash! on 2002-07-8 21:43:16, Monday
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I think we all need to re-evaluate ourselves from time to time. Personally, I find myself playing a role more often than just being myself. It's a defence mechanism. I also wish I could love and be loved by a woman. I think that would fill the need for closeness. But it's kind of a catch 22 with me. Thru life experiences, I find it very hard to totally trust women. As friends, I can trust them. But I've seen too many bad marriages and nasty break ups to trust women in a relationship. It's not a conscience thing, just a gut reaction when it comes to relationships with women. It's actually rather ironic when you think about it. Boys are a different matter. I can open up much more with them because they are generally so much more honest and open with me. I think that might be why I am sexually attracted to them. My subconscience looks to boys to fulfill the needs that would normally be filled by a woman if I could develope a relationship. Maybe with years of therapy, I could learn to have relationships with women, but it's a little late in my life to start. So to some degree, I'm afraid I'll just have to have some needs left unfulfilled. Dakota |
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