Try to pray about resisting your desires for this boy & concentrate about loving him in the way that God wants you to. You say that God is not pleased with your association with the boy, but perhaps The Lord want you to be a part of this childs life. It is tough dealing with the feelings inside you. I personally try to channel my feelings through my heart & hold back my sexual feelings as often as I can. This child has come to you, like many have come to me, for help. The enemy will seize this opportunity to test you to the fullest, but remember that the Lord only allows us to be tested up to the point that we can resist. I know that the love inside you will benefit this child, so hold onto that love & use it to bring glory to God through your work. If you get time to read this, you can drop me an e-mail if you want. Best regards MF72 |