I agree with everyone else here, your still young & your feelings are a natural part of growing up. Don't abandon your 11yo best mate, I know that he'll feel very hurt by this. Try to get in touch with him again, spend the day with him, as others have said, in a public place like the park or the cinema, etc. He will really appreciate this gesture of assuring him that you still love him very much. When I was 17, I had similar problems, I learned in time to ignore these reactions (that I still get, especially when playing wrestling with my yf's). I like to think that its a natural reaction, when your really showing unconditional love for someone, I also get it sometimes naturally when I'm with my fiancee, so don't worry about it. You may feel better about yourself, if you choose a better username than the one you have at the moment. Your not "sick" "retarded" or a "perv", you also have many friends here that will help you every step of the way. I've left my e-mail address above if you wish to contact me. Please keep in touch & please do arrange to meet your 11yo friend again, it will really mean the world to him. Love & best regards MF72 |