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Submitted by Halo on 2002-10-24 05:34:57, Thursday
In reply to My father loves me submitted by Drifter on 2002-10-22 22:24:53, Tuesday
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I'm actually glad you posted this here "drifter", cause I can tell you about my father. Okay things weren't that bad at home as a child, Dad worked long shifts & he was hardly around when I was a kid. I knew he loved me & my brother, but was never one for showing affection. I'd go to kiss him as a boy & he'd say "nahh, thats for sissies" or something like that. No hugs to remember, but he did carry me to bed on occasions. Yes, he was strict as well, but I still respect him now. I must admit I rarely call home, he's fairly busy with the little ones, my 3 half-brothers & my half-sister. I hated him for accepting their mother into our home, I was 15yo when he started seeing her. Mum was still alive & was also not happy about the affair (& it was an affair I must add). She fuelled my anger along with the neighbours daughter who was also around almost all of the time (the girl was the daughter of the man who abused me). Dad's partner had an abortion while mum was still alive, but moved in a few months after her death I think (when I was 17). Firstly I hated everything she did, she made "my house" her home, acting like a cuckoo taking over a nest. Then she started doing strange things & Dad never had a word said against her. My brother now 28 was the first to move out. He & she argued like cat & dog & my brother accepted a yf's Dad as his own (although I didn't regard my friends as yf's at the time, they were still 10 years younger than me). He took mum's death worst & probably blamed it partly on Dad's partner (a long term childhood friend of OURS, theirs 20yrs between them). Things changed slightly when they started having children together, the younger ones made me settle down I think. I took to them eventually & even scalled her about the way she'd hit her first child (when he was 3), I threatened her saying "if you ever hit him like that again I'll (& stopped)". She burst out crying shouting at me for telling her how to bring up her children. She tried to infringe my freedom & my yf's were never allowed in the house when she was there (to her they were thieves, that'll steal things from us). Dad was more acceptant, he knew how much I loved the kids I was with, even Tyrogue who'd been in trouble with the Police so many times, they'd talk to each other as if they were long-term friends. (Tyrogue was the scourge of the local police force from at least 9yo.) The bad memories were to end though. I moved out at 23yo & things settled down. As I said earlier, I don't visit much, because of the memories. But time & God's love has healed those wounds & I am friends with my dad's partner & maybe will soon accept her as my step-mum, despite her being only 4 years older than me. I love my little brothers & sisters very, very much & wouldn't change them for the world & boy do they know it! Take care Drifter LvHalo |
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