an elder one
Submitted by Avatar on 2002-11-1 18:41:05, Friday
In reply to For the older ones among us submitted by Drifter on 2002-11-1 13:26:39, Friday
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When the media and everyone around you says any person who is attracted to boys the way I am is a pervert then you have a tendency to believe it. Except for one thing, I didn't act like the predator pervert they were all talking about. I just love boys. When I was with a boy in public people would always try to make the connection to the relationship. Is he the boys father? Brother? Uncle? or Pervert. People didn't seem to accept the fact that a young boy can have an older friend and it is okay. I felt like a fish swiming upstream all the time. I never seemed to fit into society. Then, in my late thirties I discovered the internet boylove community. I was not alone. I was never really alone because I always had God but there were times when I felt forsaken. If the church I went to knew of my love for boys they would try to help me in their way and destroy my life with psycotherapy, or worst yet, banish me. I found Boychat a few years ago and latter found this place. Before the internet I was headed for a nervous breakdown. The fustration of having a child molester label was driving me toward becoming what they said I was. If not for the internet I most likely would be dead or in jail now. With Gods help I found people who not only felt the same way I did but felt good about it. It took awhile for me to understand that it was okay to love boys and child molesters are not boylovers. |
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