Re: For the older ones among us
Submitted by drew on 2002-11-1 22:24:09, Friday
In reply to For the older ones among us submitted by Drifter on 2002-11-1 13:26:39, Friday
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Growing up I was attracted to boys, so I always thought that I must be gay, but that just didn't flush I was not attracted to grown men. I considered myself to be a pedophile, by defintion only, not by actions. I was/am attracted to boys but I would never harm one. I did not know nor had I ever heard the term boylover, until I found CBF. I'm 37 now and have only had my computer for about 18 Months. Since the time I found CBF 4-5 months ago I feel alot better about myself. It is a great feeling to have so many people that understand the desires that I have without having stones cast at you. I have only had God in my life since Feb. 1999, before that time I just lived for me, since that time I have tried to live for Him, but I still miss the mark more than I hit it. I look back on my life and even though I was not a Christian I can see God's hand working in it to keep me safe. As others have said before I always thought that somewhere down the road I would let my sexual desires slip and end up in jail or dead, but thanks be to God for His amazing grace, for CBF and for all the posters on this site. Each and everyone here has at sometime given me hope when I thought it was hopeless. Love in Christ, drew |
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