I recognise that feeling. I wanted someone to find out, wanted to confess the "sinful thoughts" that I was struggling with, and to accept whatever punishment I deserved. I had to end my isolation somehow. All I am suggesting is that there may be a better way than to throw yourself on the mercy of those who are unprepared to deal with you. Since you have some time, how about reading my story? There are so many similarities, I think you could find it worthwhile. In later posts, I talked more about how much I trusted my church, how wounding their rejection was, and how the online BL community helped. Here is a chronological look at my experience in "coming out" to my church: My story (long) Restored to ministry Still frustrated Summary A good summary A new start Thats a lot, but I hope it helps. Peace, Nate |