Re: Not to pry or anything
Submitted by drew on 2002-11-21 22:55:31, Thursday
In reply to Not to pry or anything submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-11-21 22:38:24, Thursday
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I started desiring a real relationship with a woman my age, that went beyond sex. I also longed for that relationship with a woman that went beyond sex and I thought that I had found it when I found my wife, now my ex. I knew when I went into the marriage that sex was an important part of the relationship, the thing that I did not know was that it was a major part to her. I'm not saying that she was a nympho or anything like that but sex to her was what made us husband and wife. It wasn't the fact that we shared the same faith or that we just clicked so well, it was sex. Although I am more attracted to boys, I think because of their unconditional love, I hope that one day God will send another woman into my life that will HONESTLY love me for me, lack of sex drive and all my down falls. I have thought about getting out and trying to meet more people, I just don't know that I have gotten to the point that I can trust again as deeply as I did with her. I poured my heart and soul out to her to try and make it work, but it always came back to Her, it was always all about Her. I have even had some of her long term friends come to me and tell me "I was hoping that it was going to work, but she has always been the type that wants things her way". My prayer is that God will soften my heart and let me Love and trust completely again, hopefully forever this time. Love in Christ, drew |
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