Hi, I decided to kill myself, too, when I was 12. There were so many painful feelings and it seemed like it just kept getting worse....but God stopped me. I lost track many years ago of how many times I have thanked God for the good things that he has brought into my life since then. There are so many beautiful things, and places, and people that I would have missed - and there are many people that I have been able to love and help along the way. You have found a good place here. We are a small band of people, rejected by the world, who are finding a way to live honest, responsible, happy lives that please God. We support each other a lot. I hope that you will join us. You can read a lot about us and the things we struggle with. Feel free to talk with us about what is on your mind, too. I think you will find that we can accept you for who you are. Drifter has written some really good stuff to you, so I won't try to say it all again - except this: God does loves you. Don't give up on him until you understand how much. Hope to hear from you soon! Peace, Nate |