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Submitted by Genghis on 2003-03-7 02:55:51, Friday
In reply to I am ruined submitted by Genghis on 2003-03-6 06:09:02, Thursday
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I cannot begin to express the gratitude and comfort I receive from the all the replies I read. Each one of you is such an incredible, wonderful blessing. I will take each one of your comments deeply to heart, and weigh them equally against everything my "other" friends say. They are true, genuine friends, I believe, who all mean well, but in some ways are misguided. The current "mean well" incident instigated by J - is the most misguided, devastating of all - I can think of nothing that would have been more hurting. I can begin to see why he did it, but there are *so many* more reasons why he should not have done it. But it has happened - no turning back - so I will go on with life and pray for the best. All of you are so wonderful. Yesterday night I was in such distress that I typed, "I would rather NEVER SEE B AGAIN than to have you tell his parents." Then I read Forgiven's post. This afternoon, I called B's mom. I talked with her, and told her. It was very hard. I felt that if J and my pastor were going to tell her this Saturday, it would be better if I told her first. There's no turning back. She and her family are... I cannot say. ! I love them so, so much. She took it very well. I told her everything. It was very hard, but she was very sympathetic. Then I had to get off the line because I had a meeting to go to. Later tonight, B's dad left a voicemail on my cellphone. He said he was calling to check up on me, to see if I was all right, that they still love me and accept me no matter who I am, and that I would always be welcome in their house and hope that they will see me again very soon. I cannot believe it. I was in tears. When I said B's mom was sympathetic, it wasn't that she thinks BL or homosexuality is OK, but rather she understood I was sincerely trying to change and knew what I was going through. She thinks that B should know about it, but she won't tell him if I don't want her to. She thinks it would be best for him to know, so nothing will be in the dark. I don't know at this time, but she may be right. I am so grateful to God for such an incredible family as them. And for a group of such supportive Christians. in Him, Genghis |
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