Re: quite the flick (also Aaron Carter)
Submitted by John Guard on March 17 1999 at 19:05:46
In reply to quite the flick Submitted by Jeremy on March 17 1999 at 12:44:44
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Life is often quite interesting. It tends to remind me of the time I rode Viper at Magic Mountain, CA, a series of massive ups and downs. Of course, I was dragged into that heart-killing machine by the kids but thats another story. You are correct in your implication that human life is quite meaningless or lacking if it exists by itself, that is with no one else to bond with. That is probably why the LORD instituted the idea of marriage (to be contemporary...Biblically speaking, marriage was quite different from the modern kind of marriage we know now). HE said that the man and woman will become of one flesh. There is a "mystical" bond between a union between man and woman that should transcend mere sex or "friendship". Its quite difficult to explain but it involves a bond affecting the physical (sex), mental (decision making), emotional (feelings and the sharing thereof) as well as spiritual (ones relationship with GOD). Someone once said that people are usually empty unless they can connect with someone or something. Some people are "married" to their work, or to money, or to mere sex. Some people think that marrying the perfect man/woman will give them joy (as if anyone is perfect). Invariably, be it in this life or otherwise, all such endeavors are destined to fail...because they are unions that are conditional and fleeting. Workplaces change everytime. You are rich one day and poor the next. One sex partner can become tiring and we are off to the next..and the next..and the next..etc. Our spouses will invariably have something we are uncomfortable with, or disagree with, or be different from. Now, these arent wrong in themselves but when we leave GOD out of our lives, they are extremely cheap, temporary substitutes to what we truly need. GOD's Love is unconditional, and the salvation HE offers in Christ is permanent, eternal and complete. Work, money, sex, marriage and everything else will never be completely filling unless we focus our eyes on GOD. Sorry if I digress but in relation to our position as pedophiles... Its a tricky thing, I have to confess. For one, I feel that life is empty unless there is a child in my life. Secondly, I have a tendency to want to bond with a child...in a similar but not entirely same manner as a man would with a woman (and vice versa). However, like everything else, such a feeling is a manifestation of sin. Sin, in its essence simply means to seek something outside of GOD. A person who substitutes money for GOD is no different than a person who substitutes kids(or the longing thereof) for GOD. Now, that doesnt mean we should shun kids or separate ourselves from them. That would be like a person needed to become a hermit in order to flee from everyone and everything. However, it is important that we allow GOD to run how we interact with kids. Again, we have to focus on GOD, and not on our feelings. What we like to do is not necessarily what we need to do. In Biblical times, there were men called eunuchs who , for the most part I suppose, chose to forgo any kind of sex in order to devote themselves to GOD entirely. In a similar manner, there were groups such as the Nazarenes and Levites, who dedicate themselves to GOD by sacrificing some elements of normal life. I think that is GOD's purpose for us pedophiles...or at least the ones who have been cleansed by the blood. We are HIS modern eunuchs. We sacrifice some of the things we would want to do. Is GOD a killjoy that HE doesn't want us to enjoy life? Well, this is when we have to be completely honest with ourselves. We received GOD as our Savior and LORD...but do we practice what we say? That is the crucial element of faith...to act upon something we believe. In retrospect, GOD isnt asking much from us in comparison to what HE asked the Bible people. Isaiah was sawed in half. Jeremiah was frequently persecuted and tortured. Paul was beheaded. Peter was crucified upside down. Stephen was stoned to death. Moses had to rely on his faith in GOD against the most powerful empire of his time. Sacrifice...that seems to be something that is so...foreign in modern life. Now, for the Aaron Carter part. I included this because I think its both amusing but thought-provoking. I met the kid a year ago. He is such an extremely extremely adorable, cute, energetic and wonderful little boy. Totally innocent, childlike and fun to be around with. He represented the perfect boy to me (and I have only met him for a few mins...silly, no?) The less-than-5 minutes I was with him was like heaven. I just felt my heart and soul gnawing for him. The following days (if not months), I was just obsessed about him. I wanted him in my life; I longed him to be a son. My thoughts, feelings and basically everything else was centered on him. Then it hit me, almost literally. I was making this kid, as wonderful as he is, my god. My focus was on him rather than GOD. My image of Aaron Carter (note: image) was my idol..the savior and lord of my heart. I broke down in remorse and guilt as I considered what I was doing. It took me quite some time to get back on the right track...quite painful too. That, my breathen, is what we should be wary about when we deal with kids..directly or indirectly. If we are not careful (in maintaining our focus on GOD), our feelings will destroy us. Satan knows this. It is one of his most powerful tool...making use of our feelings against us. For some, he uses sexual feelings. For others, he uses emotional wants and dependencies. For others, he uses fear and hatred. We need to always be steadfast in our faith and focus. Just my two cents in Christ, John Guard |