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Submitted by Mark on April 09 1999 at 22:31:34
In reply to call me curious or... Submitted by scott on April 09 1999 at 03:09:54
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I am in my late 30's. I knew I was homosexual when I was 11. At that time and into high school I had feelings for boys my age, younger, and older, as well as for men, although the thought of acting on them never even crossed my mind. I just thought they were shameful. I realized at age 25 that I had become attracted to mainly boys under age 16. Somewhere along the line my feelings for men and even older boys had faded. When I look back I realize that I was a BLer before age 25, but only then became concious of it. I have not seen any change in society's view of BL; I thought it was always extremely negative. I grew up in a (fairly liberal) Christian home, and accepted Christ and was baptised at age 18. I felt guilty about my fantasies, but didn't think they were too sinful until 7 years ago when I began teaching at the conservative Christian school where I am now, and attended local churches. They constantly talk of impure thoughts and sexual immorality. I thought God was rejecting me, or I didn't have enough faith, if he wouldn't take away my orientation. Two years ago I discovered BL sites on the web, and they completely changed my outlook on my orientation. Now I feel positive about it, and that has been helped by some times with God when I felt the Holy Spirit telling me that God loves me and accepts me. Also a little less than two years ago I switched to a more liberal church which I enjoy very much. Hope this was the kind of info you were looking for! Mark |