Re: A Newbie speaks............
Submitted by Ben on April 13 1999 at 18:24:28
In reply to A Newbie speaks............ Submitted by Don on April 13 1999 at 03:27:33
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Welcome Don, I'm really glad that you found us. We have quite alot in common actually in the way that we live our lives. I never thought of myself as gay either and I dated a little but not alot. As I emerged into adolescence I also developed a "self sex" life, thinking about young boys, that never evolved into being gay nor did it ever evolve into molesting boys. In my private time my fantasies are great and fulfilling (physically) but when I am around boys I am a caring, loving mentor, guide, coach, whatever with not a hint of sexual overtone. Because I am not Christian (but am currently exploring it) I didn't have the same guilt source as you did but I still felt guilty about my masterbation habits. As I look at Christianity, I am confused about whether or not my fantasies are sinful or not. Most people seem to agree that just masterbation is not, but where it becomes sinful is unclear to me. I'm not sure if I have the power to stop it either, which brings me to the dilemma of whether I turn away from Christianity because I feel that I cannot stop a sinful life, or do I turn TO it and ask for help from God. Maybe you can help me. Certainly, you are not alone. 
Ben |