Re-establishing priorities
Submitted by Ben on April 23 1999 at 20:45:51
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Just thought that I might share with you all the challenge that God set before me this week. The twins went to the Caribbean on vacation this week. This is the first time that I have not had them (or their dad) as a regular part of my life since I was introduced to the bible. God really put me to the test in a couple of ways. First of all, I had to spend my day knowing that the most beautiful boys in the world (to me) were running around shirtless on a tropical beach all week. I was actually jealous of all of the people who I don't even know, who might be staying at the same hotel as them or something like that. Just the thought of them in such a paradise like setting has been killing me all week. On a less superficial level, I've also had to contend with NOT having the carrot that drew me to the church in the first place. I didn't have them in church, in bible study or to enjoy when I met with their dad. My fear was that, without the twins there as part of the picture, that I would have no interest in God and the church. I was very wrong. My interest was as strong as ever. I studied the bible all week, actually seeking out other people in the church who would spend a few hours with me (and many gladly did). I went to church all by myself (but was hardly alone since I've met so many nice people) and still read the bible daily. I struggled with not having the joy of the twins in my life, but I learned a bit about what will come some day when the twins get older. God has blessed me with them but he did want to remind me that my priority cannot be the twins. As hard as this week has been, I am glad that I was challenged in this way. I am also glad to say that the twins come home tomorrow :) You are not alone. 
Ben |