Re: a piece of me
Submitted by Ben on June 08 1999 at 07:17:20
In reply to a piece of me Submitted by Jeremy on June 07 1999 at 13:06:20
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Hi Jeremy, Thanks for finally deciding to post. You shouldn't feel like you have to be impressive in your posts. A boylove forum is a two way street. We give where we can and we also should freely 'take' where we have needs. I can completely relate to where you are in life. I too spent my school years (and most of my adult years) 'sort of' fitting in with friends and peers, but at the same time my love for boys was really what lived in my heart. When the weather got warm in the springtime, I would head downtown to the local park and prefer to play basketball with the local 12 year olds while the rest of my college buddies were out chasing bikinis. The one thing that I have learned, in my very short walk as a Christian, is that God fully intended for you to be a BL. He intended for you to love boys and to have boys in your life, though he does not intend for this love to be sexually consummated (IMHO.....). At times in my life when I tried to 'undo' my orientation by staying away from boys or blocking them out, my heart was a totally empty place. My spiritual journey has shown me that my life absolutely is intended to include boys, for my attraction to boys has given me a special love and ability to relate to them that most heterosexual men will never have. You must trust that God is in control and not feel that you have to 'fight' your orientation. God will help you walk straight if your faith is strong. You are not alone. 
Ben |