Re: "A test from God"
Submitted by Adam TBK on June 13 1999 at 17:49:13
In reply to "A test from God" Submitted by Heather on June 13 1999 at 12:04:27
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Hi, >Am I right in understanding that what caused your older friend to start becoming distant from you was the discovery that you were a boylover? Because I'd always assumed from your previous accounts that he was reacting negatively to himself being a boylover. Or were the two connected in his mind? I think he became distant because of a combination of those two things, plus one other: that if he and I were to be in a room alone, I would be pressing matters towards the physical or even sexual contact. And perhaps the two were connected in his mind because he thought I was corrupting him? I don't know. When I referred to "testing" in previous posts, I think I was only referring to his idea that *I* was being "tested" in how I acted towards him and other boys. But there was one thing that showed that he too thought he was being tested in his conduct with me. He has a BB permanently inside of his finger, from a childhood accident (thought you wouldn't know from looking at it). One week after he had used that hand to masturbate me, the BB had moved and caused an painful infection--which he told me was God's way of telling him something. So yes, as you guessed he had a double concern. Adam |