Heather - Thanks for this terrific reply. The more time that goes on, the more I believe that God fully intented me to be a boylover. It was boys (the twins) who led me to God and Jesus and it seems that God is working through me to help a number of other kids come to faith. Had I not the love for boys and the desire to be around them, to spend time with them, to be committed to helping them I am sure that I would not be able to make the impact that I am. And the tough challenge is, God expects me to no longer take part in the sexual aspects (I'm talking masterbation here....) of boylove. It is the cross that I have to bear daily. The Church, alas, has been slow in recognizing the transforming possibilities of sexual attractions that cannot be acted upon There is even a woman in my life lately. With God, nothing is impossible :) You are not alone. Ben |