Hi Ben, Ben, I just want you to know something. I have a tremendous amount of respect and admiration for you as a Christian and a boylover. From all of the posts you have written in here about your life, your relationship with that family and the twin boys (whom I am sure you love deeply), and your growing relationship with God. Ben, as much as I think of you, God thinks of you so much more. He loves you, my friend, and thinks very highly of you also. He is always with you and is ready to forgive you no matter what. You are His child now because you have accepted His Son and have been adopted into His family. He loves you without measure and unconditionally. AND He trusts you with those kids! Ben, God is always right about the important decisions He makes (He cannot make a mistake, right?), so let me put it like this for you. If God trusts you, loves you, and is ready all the time to forgive you unconditionally, perhaps you would be doing yourself (and God) a huge favor if you would try to forgive yourself as well. Take care good friend and try not to worry so much about things like this, ok? God is always at work in your life and He knows what is always best for you. Love, your fiend in Christ, Chris |