A confession. Going too far.
Submitted by Ben on September 02 1999 at 20:51:02
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Guys I need to confess a sin that occured this week. I usually spend one to two afternoons with the twins each week. This week, it was a warm day and the twin who I am closest with was wearing basketball shorts with no underwear. This kid has a phenomenal, athletic, twelve year old body. Without giving detail which might arouse others here, I'll just say that I did not have a good grip on controlling my lustful eyes. We played games, went swimming and did so much that afternoon that gave me greater chances to lust after his beautiful body. That night, I couldn't control myself and I masterbated. I have masterbated before since I was baptized, yet this time seemed different because it was a direct result of a lustful loss of control. The other times had been more or less planned and calculated physical releases and did not seem to carry the same weight of wrongness. God has blessed my life considerably with the twins as being practically my little brothers. I see them all week long, play, swim and even have sleep overs with them on a regular, ongoing basis. That I took advantage of this incredible gift is shameful and I want to repent of it. So, there it is, my confession. Thanks for listening. You are not alone. Ben |