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Submitted by SGitNW (JesusLuVr) on September 30 1999 at 23:48:31
In reply to Re: Thank you Chris Submitted by Chris on September 28 1999 at 00:49:01
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(no spell check) Hey Admit... I think about a particular kid. I don't want to think about him and I am totally truthful its not sexual, and i mean I don't lust for him or anything. The kid is just on my mind. He lingers in my mind, like a carrott infront of a donkey to keep him walking this kid is like that carrot (Kinda weird for me to read what I just typed). I mean I view this kid as a little brother and i know he trusts me completly and I know his parents trust me, that is with all their children. I know that theyu know that this kid, Fiesty, has been a weekness and that I would do almost anything for this kid. Now, I don't know if you think that this is bad or what i would much rather have other things lingering in my head, like Jesus, and his word and wanting to read his word and stuff. See I realize that this is a strong hold and that I need to pray it out. Just seek God and pray that God will change this according to his will. I guess fiesty isn't always on my mind, but He is sometimes and in the past he was all I thought about. It was totally weird and it bugged me and I am glad that his parents are as cool and understanding as they are, otherwise I would be hating life right now, but i PRAISE God that I can call his parents my parents too, I am a very lucky guy I guess. In the same sense I just want release from this minor burden. Now in your case "Screwed up" first you have to realise you aren't the only screwed up guy! (I am a bit screwed up myself!) What you gotta do is get into the word of God. The way you do this is Find somewhere you will not be disturbed and have your bible closed there infront of you. Then Pray "Holy Spirit, I pray right now that you will come upon me and inpire and light up your word and send Fire from heaven to ingnite your Words from God and show me what you want me to read. THank you God. Amen!" Then open your bible (preferably some place in the New Testiment) and be gin to read the first thing you see. And continue to read for at least a half hour everyday. Also Call some local Assembly of God churches and ask them if they are familiar with Cleansing Stream (its a ministry based out of The church on the way, of Van Nuys, California. with Jack Harford). Once you find a church that is familair tell them that you want to go through the course, and sign up! I am on the 4th session and I admit there is alot of reading and I haven't done all my homework but there is alot to purge out of my system and I don't expect for it to happen my firdt time through the program. I gotta go (still at work)! Gods Peace and Love, Some Guy in the North West (Jesus Lover) |