Re: Had more to say...
Submitted by Ben on October 01 1999 at 21:25:46
In reply to Had more to say... Submitted by Screwed Up on September 27 1999 at 14:09:50
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SU - A huge welcome and hug to cblf. I am really happy that you have found your way here and am grateful that you have a strong convictions against what you are doing. I have often gone back also to Paul's statement that he hates what he does also. It reminds us that even Paul struggled with his flesh. In fact, I wonder if Paul didn't actually struggle with homosexuality or boylove himself (after all.....why not just be married?). Some very good advice has come out here and you are going to need ALL of it to help you get control of your life. You absolutely do need to begin praying and reading the bible daily. Particularly the NT helps to set your heart on Godly things, giving you strength and filling you with the Holy Spirit enough to deal with the temptation. Although I do not advocate it, you might need to break the cycle by temporarily turning to masterbation, trying to focus your fantasies on something other than molesting boys. Fantasizing about it will only strengthen your desire for it. That I can guarantee. Finding other ways to connect with boys is another good idea as well. But you are going to need God's help and the help of other brothers (maybe even here) to be able to break the chains of sin that you are bound by. Although my sin was far less damaging (it was just masterbation) I also did not have the power on my own to stop it. You ARE at a disadvantage that your sin can cause damage to other people, but it also should make it more conclusive to you that you have to stop sinning. You have to trust that God can help you. God will change your heart if you keep on praying it and believing it. Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." You are not alone. Ben |