following in His footsteps...
Submitted by Scott on October 01 1999 at 23:15:26
In reply to Re: more advice...if ya dont mind Submitted by Ben on October 01 1999 at 20:32:33
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hi ben, thanks for the thoughts. >...I do not think that he wants us to have free rein to lust and masterbate at will. That does NOT seem like it would be God's will. Can you imagine Jesus acting that way? i decidedly think that Jesus does not want us to have free rein to lust. i myself do not want lust to have free rein over me, which is what will happen if i give in and submit myself... and that is something that i try to prevent, with all my heart and mind and soul. but, to use your example: > So, I made a decision that it was better to swim with the twins and NOT masterbate than to NOT swim i should be with the kids and not indulge myself, rather than not be with the kids? i am already at somewhat of the same conclusion. i truly love being with the boys i work with, and after the amount of time i have been doing this, i know i want to do this for a long time yet. so, i need to come up with a way to manage my lust, so it does not consume me, even though i am surrounded by temptation and beautiful boys. therefore, the logical thing to do would be to find some acceptable outlet for my lust. i got several choices now: 1: i might could continue as i am, with the occasional *personal release* 2: i could enter a committed sexual relationship with a boy 3: i could be in a relationship with a woman (also committed) 4: i could give up and give in to my lust and let it rule my life 5: change careers and give up being with boys altogether. now, personally, i prefer 2. but, for the moment, it is not an option. (again, now is not the time to debate this whole issue...) 4 is also not an option (i am lots of things, but not a quitter), nor is 5 (the same reason). that leaves 3 and 1. 3 is an option for me, as i could be happy with some women, and that would be an acceptable and Godly way to relieve sexual tension. unfortunately, it is not an option right now, as i am in no position to get married... especially as screwed up as i am right now... that leaves 1. i guess i must carry on with my burden. when i think about Jesus' suffering on the cross, this somehow pales in comparison... i must stay strong, and believe, and He will be faithful, and be with me... even though i walk through the valley of death... let me know what you think... i am interested to hear. with Jesus, no one is alone, and i am glad to count you a brother, Ben. In His Love, Mercy, and Grace, which abounds beyond counting... Scott |