BLues - Welcome to cblf. You are completely welcome here. If I force myself, sexually, on one I will be happy. This is actually not true at all. No sin promises more and delivers less than sexual sin. If you have sex with a boy, you will be SATISFIED for a short period of time. You will not be happy and there will be no lasting affect (on you). Instead, you will be UNhappy until you abuse another boy. Finding the plan that God has for you is the greatest joy of being a Christian. However, God reveals his plan to us when we turn our lives to him: Jeremiah 29 11For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. It is unlikely that God will reveal to you a plan of abusing boys, particularly because it would cause God to hurt the boy. Just some thoughts on your thoughts! You are not alone. Ben |