Re: Yes, search for old friends . . . and new
Submitted by nog on December 13 1999 at 02:01:32
In reply to Yes, search for old friends . . . and new Submitted by Jules on December 12 1999 at 15:03:34
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Yes jules you are right he did sense it i'm sure.but that is not the reason we parted ways.without admitting my true feelings to him or him confronting me we had a 'chat' not so long ago about "us".i think both of us needed that chat.it put me in no doubt that all he wanted was friendship and that he in no way felt threathened by me.that he was entirely comfortable with me and wanted/needed me to be there for/with him that makes it all the harder to fathom that in such a short period of time things went from being oh so right to oh so wrong a lot of what u wrote rings true in my case,all except the part of him not being able to cope with whatever sense he picked up He changed his whole attitude and personna changed went from being sweet and thoughtful to rude and arrogant so much for my efforts at mentoring.sure you'll say its all part vof adolesence and them seeking to asssert there independance. i do understand this.but i believe this was not the case.for whatever reason he chose to be spiteful he got demanding and ungrateful mebbe i shoulda given him better understanding maybe i was being too sensitive either way we fell out i've lost a friend i cant say i lost a lover cos he never really was my lover but when a friendship starts getting all one sided...................... mebbe in the future i will see it was for the best. that it would have ended this way no matter what i did or tried.ppl i know irl who saw me with g and knew what i did for him are now telling me they cant believe i stuck with his attitude for so long. i guess thats te acid test...how ppl view us from the outside anyway excuse my rantings and thank-you for your feed back |