Re: Not sure what to think
Submitted by Don on December 17 1999 at 14:21:22
In reply to Not sure what to think Submitted by ChoirBoy on December 14 1999 at 04:27:38
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Hey..... As I read your post I was thinking "wow, this sounds just like me" (except for the girlfriend/marriage part). I'm not gay or sexually active but I have struggled with lust and used to do the internet boy porn thing. It's interesting how you say you aren't sexually attracted to real boys but have certain fantsies about them. Me too...... I don't have a girlfriend cause I like my independence and would just rather focus my energy on other things. I take great comfort in 1st Corinthians 7 where the merits of staying single are mentioned in a positive light. I have used those passages to defend myself against those who think it's wrong for a Christian guy to be 38 and not married. I think if you got married and had kids of your own...or adopted a few boys.....you could put your boylove feelings to work in a more "acceptable" way by being a loving father. Sometimes I thing my own feelings of caring about boys is just a natural fatherly instinct that remains unfulfilled because of my circumstance. Don't feel you are alone in all of this....I used to before I found this place. I've been using my God given gift of boylove to reach out to hurting boys for the last three or four years. The love I've shown them and the relationships I've formed have changed my life and brought me closer to God. Feel free to e-mail me if you want to talk more. Don |