ECHO!
Submitted by WindDancer on December 30 1999 at 00:21:13
In reply to A Question. Submitted by Echo Free on December 25 1999 at 04:48:55
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I've been there. You elude to the "infirmity" as did Paul who prayed to be delivered. It would appear to the reader that Paul was not delivered. The infrimity Paul suffered was a broken heart for all he had done to others who were innocent and underserving. The feelings you have within your spirit are common to us all. Condemnation. We speak of faith when it's religion we really mean. There is a great difference. "In vain they worship me, following the teachings, commandments and doctrines of men". Faith is believing God without physical evidence. Faith is of the spirit not of the flesh. I am assuming you are saying your infirmity is being a boylover? If so and you have prayed that God would take it away and didn't he is not taking it away for a reason. The reason? He loves you as you are. But, you must be the best of who you are. Your goal is to reach a point where your highest aspirations are to bring love to others. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Sound familiar? Your pain is more than likely from the struggle of the flesh. There is no deliverence from the flesh or it's stuggles. You will make mistakes and sin. You will still be forgiven. Otherwise the Lord would not have had to attone for your sins on the cross. That day when he was crusified covered every sin anyone has ever committed or ever will commit. Your stong desire for physical relations will never fill your need for spiritual love. The physical desires will remain and from time to time you will out of weakness act upon them. But, remember, there is more to you than the physical being. You have a soul...[mind] and spirit [life force] that makes up completly who you are. You are battling with one third of yourself and the other two thirds of yourself are suffering. My dear friend, the Father has forgiven you, now forgive yourself. You are required to do that. If God has forgiven you then who are you not to forgive yourself? Did someone tell you it's selfish to forgive yourself? It's not. It's required, ask the Father these things and then listen for that still small voice inside you. There is a reason I am here. You will all soon see it. Echo, when you close yourself off in your room and feel that horrible despair coming on....take the authority the Father has given you and rebuke it in his name. It's his power that will drive it away and increase your faith. I know you have shed so many tears until you have became tired of doing it. I know you have even screamed. The shock of fear and lonliness have also taken you at times but I promise you this. It is only temporary and will pass. You will come out stonger for there is a purpose to you precious life. You just haven't been able to see it yet because of the darkness and pain you have been bound in. You are now free from that bondage, go in peace and ask the Father to give you his spirit....in faith speak of that which is not as thought it were...instead of asking for deliverence thank him for it...then it will come...that my dear brother is the essencse of faith....continue in it in all things you pray for... In love and peace, Bill |