A Question.
Submitted by Echo Free on December 25 1999 at 04:48:55
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Hi there; Some of you may have read my posts over at CE and BC. So first off I Say HI. This question is for the christion BL on this site. First a little background. About three years ago I became a Born Again Christian. I went to church every week and read my bible daily. I prayed nitely that God would take away my infermity and make me whole. He never did. Hears a little something I thought up. I have seen the Shadow Side The darkest part of my soal Into this Horror, I come again; Theres nowhere left to go. I've bowed my head beg and pleaded Cried out in the night To be healed and freed But it never happened I see the shadow still nawing away At my life and my faith I have seen the Shadow Side The darkest part of my soal Into this Horror, I come again Theres nowhere left to go. I have come to accept that I am the way I am. Even God can't (or won't) change me. My Question to you Guys is how do you reconcile your faith with your Shadow Side? I know that God loves me because of his sacrifice, but how do I LOVE him? I know that I can not live as a christian should. I am A Boy Lover. Feeling lost in the tide. Hopeing for the Love I once knew. Knowing I can Never Have It Again. Echo <((( |