thanks bach, your support means more than i can say right now... i would like to clear up one thing, tho: (and i apologize for my current incoherence...hehehe) she did not leave me cause i am a boylover... and she has no qualms over my boylove... (to a degree: she told me she will never truly understand, but she can accept) rather we split up because of the fact that i was unable or i did not show her the love i had for her, and she needed that demonstration... and also because of some other things that needed to be better between us. true, some of my little quirks are because i have been a boylover for so long, but i asked her specifically how the boys affected our relationship, and believe it or not, it was only a small piece of the pie. but i love this place and these people and you especially bro, only here can i find others who are truly searching with me... and yes, He will lead me... but i wait anxiously for the day when she calls me up and tells me either to come back or go to hell, either way, i cannot wait to know... check yer mail...i do owe you a visit love, grace and peace, scott |