On being a loved boy
Submitted by Rex Infinity on March 17 2000 15:32:11
In reply to My questions... submitted by Truthseeker on March 16 2000 10:39:00
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When I was a kid, there was this man at the local Sunday School who used to be affectionate with any boy willing. To this day I do not know if he was a BL, but at the time I hoped he was (of course, i did not know the term BL in those days, but I did know what I wanted). I once followed him home in the hope that he would be more "physical" with me. Alas he sent me back home before we even got more than halfway there. I couldn't have been more than about 9 or 10, yet I knew what I wanted. Or thought I did. These days I'm not so sure. If things had gone the other way, I do not believe he would have had to intimidate me to get his way. I was in pursuit after all; compelled by a feeling, an emotion, a need. I do not believe I would have been destroyed. Merely fulfilled. But he turned me away. Maybe not the best thing for me. Maybe not the best thing for him. But he turned me away. And I looked elsewhere. Thank God I never looked in the wrong place. Or that the wrong person saw me looking and took me in... Peace be with you Rex Infinity |
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