Hello All
Submitted by Tempest on May 18 2000 19:14:26
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Hi All, ive been lurking here for a couple days...nice site and well very nice to know that there are other christian boylovers dealing and struggling with the same issues that i do in life. Hmm A little about myself is in order perhaps? well im 19, born-again, and very much fallen out of my faith. I belive in God, in Jesus, and his resurection, and he is my personal savior. the thing is when i started to struggle with Being a BL, and prayed and prayed and prayed....i didnt get changed, i know unrealistic, but that was my prayer. i have also aqquired a very dirty mouth, and had stopped praying, but have recently resumed that. I came to christ thorugh Promise Keepers, and Younglife, which is a christian youthgroup. For the past several summers i was a camp counsellour. last summer the camp noticed my over-attraction to my campers, after an incident or two, and put two and two together, and asked me about it. well i broke down and admitted what i was...they told my mom, which has made my home life very uncomfy, also for obvious reasons ill never be able to go back to my camp again. and since mom knows shell never approve of me getting any type of job thats interacting with children, which made me feel complete and usefull, and well i enjoyed it allot. Sooo a couple weeks ago the mother of one of my campers sends me an email, asking me to nanny him for the summer...and so i called her up and told her about me, the reason being that i wanted to go there sooo much, but i wouldnt halve been able to unless i came clean. She said shed get back to me, but she hasnt. ohhh welll my lifes a wreck and i found this board, and hoping to make it a home for a bit. -Searching for Solace in the Tempest of life- |
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