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Submitted by B-Bobby on July 21 2000 14:26:27
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I pride myself on being a Christian, Jeuss Christ is was and always well be first in my life. I was born in to a christain family and have grown up in an active church most of my life. Since an early age I've had a deep desire to be around boys I was active in church youth groups both as a teenager and as a counselor. I've helped many of young boys turn there life around and offer it unto Jesus Christ and for that part I feel I've done good. With Good also comes pain, I had differnt games that I played at youth Group meeting where the boys had to remove there shirts, why? In truth I wonted to see them without there shirts on. [edited] Am I wrong? Does God truly understand what a boy's body does to me? When I was younger just a boy I did have a boy friend and we made love al-most every day to this day I still remember the feel of his boyhood body next to mine, I'm 36yrs old and I still get erctions when I spot a cute boy, its not that I wont to make love with them or see them naked its that they bring out such Joy and pleasure in me that I treat them like Gods angels of boyhood. The question is am I wrong? Does God still love me? I know that Jesus died for all my sins and yes I'm going to heaven when I die but on Earth now the feelings I have the pictures I look for on the Internet... Is this still okay in the eyes of God? Hugs, B-Bobby |
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