1) You are sitting very uncomfortably on the fence between wanting to have gay sex and seeking to live a celibate life

2) You are suffering a bad case of unrequited love

The problem with sitting on the fence is that you get the benefits of neither side, just the frustrations. The celibate life does have its joys - it's just that they aren't as obvious or well advertised. And the degree to which you are fixated on the greener grass on the other side is the degree to which you will tend to miss those chances for appropriate, non-sexual, intimacy with people which is how us celibate find the love we need to live.

As to unrequited love - there's no easy solution to that, which is why the poets down the ages talk about it so much. I do think you need to be cautious that your WoW friend hasn't panicked and been replaced by a police officer playing the part to trap you... I find it helpful to pray for the object of my affection - turning the energy of the attraction into prayer is a good way to legitimate it, and if you can't look at God when you are thinking about him you know you've crossed the line. And also get out there and find other friends and activities so you aren't focused down on your misery and the 'ONLY' solution represented by your YF.

And do stick around here; we are a reminder that life can be survived and at times even enjoyed despite the having a socially unacceptable temptation on your shoulder.