I used to think everyone started out on the gay scene looking for relatio nship but I was always way too idealistic. I used to go to a pub in ***** many years ago and then go on to the local club. I couldn't do one-night stands and, one night, when I was (as usual)nearly the only guy left in the club except for a group of ageing queens (everyone had paired off for the night) one of them shouted over: 'You think you're too good for us dont you?!'
It really shocked me because I hadnt realised that there was a kind of pressure to actually DO the one night stand thing. I never went again after that: I couldnt face it. [Once you start on the one-night stand thing how would it be possible to stop? and what could it mean emotionally? I only wanted a real friend: as I said, far too idealistic and anyway I was wrestling with being seriously BL although I couldnt admit it. On a saturday night the younger guys would come in (well under-age - 15 plus I guess) and I ached to spend time with them [but could never bring myself to even talk to them let alone get intimate (I was only about 24 myself back then though I felt about 50)].
MCC is the Metropolitan Community Church which is mostly for gays and lesbians who feel excluded from their own churches. Most large cities have one. Google it and see.