to think you might have something as serious as schizophrenia but you need to follow all leads and figure this out. Your problem is obviously negatively affecting your life so you need to do something about it. Go to a mental health professional who has experience in this field and see what he says. You may not have it and that will be good and will be one thing you know it is NOT but that will mean you need to keep looking. Maybe you do have it and in that case it is good you found out. When you find out you have something like this you can work to take control over it rather than let it take control over you. There are good medications for it and decent treatment as well.

Good luck and God bless,