The other day... I had a sexual encounter.
Of course, it was an old friend, my age, whom I'd never been with before.
Though, sex is sex, we didn't go "all the way".
And now a days I have to define what that means.
We did not engage in penetrating sexual acts.

The thing that puzzles me... is it's not like it used to be.
I was literally numb, and I felt nothing.
I don't want to have sex with anyone.
I was more satisfied by my left hand.
It's very strange.
But I'm also very serious about this.

I had an objective the whole time.
It was to see, if as an adult, do I really enjoy sex with another guy like I spent days on end thinking I do?

And I found the answer. And that is no.

So, for better or worse.