I feel sorry for the ones who throw themselves in head first. I know before I start that sex on the gay scene can be like drugs or alcohol, but some people just don't.

I guess that in the end I want the intimacy more than I want the sex. I think when I said I just wanted to shag everyone that moved I must have been on some kind of testosterone high. I mean like I said, I've got a lifetime, so I could end up there, but if I had to choose one or the other I think I would just have to go searching for a guy who wanted intimacy as much as I do.

Even though I can imagine loving a legal age guy, I still imagine it as very BLish. I want someone to sort of baby and cradle, if you know what I mean. As well as someone who is just generally interesting! I certainly feel like I want to be more of the 'man' in the relationship. But really, I'm just trying to project my pedarestic care instincts onto an adult.

Which is possible, I guess, but rare...

Mind you, maybe not as rare as I think. After all... every effeminite gay guy needs a partner, right?