well yes and no. I really only have i'd say one friend my age. I hang out with a few people my age but its really more of a superficial friendship with them, I really only have 1 person my age I would say I am truly friends with. But I do have older friends. I always in school got along better with adults than kids my own age. I have since found out that my problem was (how to put this humbly) smart, I took like a real IQ test, not some silly little website test but an actual IQ test and scored higher than 92% of those my age...and so I always because of that actually found more in common with adults than kids my own age.

As far and sexual preference goes, I have viewed both gay and straight porn (don't worry it was adult stuff). I have considered experimenting with guys my age and have even replied to or posted ads on craigslist but never followed though on anything (which is really fortunate. I would say that I am attracted to females not so much sexually but definably romantically like I want to have a wife (and yes kids too). Sometimes I just think about the future. What it will be like to have a wife, and kids (hopefully boys, but not for what may seem to be obvious reasons considering the nature of these forums)

Really when it comes down to it, most the time I am completely normal (if there is such a thing as normal). But a have my moments (though the seem few, usually when I am home, alone in my room, and have nothing to do) where I turn to either adult pornography or pictures of kids (though the kid pics are not pornographic in any way its all boys some fully clothed, some shirtless, some in underwear but nothing beyond that).

But again 99% of the time, I don't have any dark desires. Most the time I am just a normal church going guy who loves god and loves working with youth for nothing more than being called to impact the next generation.